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I think back on the time I wore your ring
I thought that I was yours, you were my everything.
And now here I am, a year has passed
I never thought that joy I felt just wouldn't last.

I'm not your girl anymore,
You're not my guy.
The dream that was the dream of us
is now, just you and I.
I don't even think about you anymore.
But is that so wrong?
Is that so wrong?

You left me sudden, cold, and quickly.
I felt the pain, I hurt, and oh, I cried.
But When the hurt was gone their was a new me,
A strong me,
The girl that I'd been waiting for
A girl grown up an ready for her life
To begin

I'm not your girl anymore,

You're not my guy.

The dream that was the dream of us

is now, just you and I.

I don't even think about you anymore.

But is that so wrong?

Is that so wrong?

I'm not your girl.

I'm mine.

loved like crazy

There is nothing I shall want.
Nothing.
No. Thing.

This is crazy. I can't believe I'm even thinking this way.
What is wrong with me

I'm going crazy.
Nothing shall I want?
No thing shall I want?

Yes, nothing shall I want.
I am crazy.

I am loved like crazy.
And it's wonderful.

okay.

I'm finally okay. 

I think I found my end

In all of this. 

I'm over it. 

Okay. 

Not over you,

Because it can't 

Disappear that fast 

Something, anything, close

To love does not just

Disappear

You're moving on

And it's okay

I'm gonna be okay

Even though I love you

No,

Care about you 

oh so very much

I know you weren't

The one 

And I'll be okay 

Yeah I'll be fine 

I'm finally be okay 

And moving on

and then I'm done

I'm gonna let myself cry one last time

To let go

And I need to cry 

To be hurt

To heal

And to become whole again. 

Because I loved him

And I think he loved me

And I'm so sorry 

That was the end 

Right then 

So soon

I never meant to hurt you

I never wanted you to feel so bad

I didn't want to leave you

You turned around and let me walk away 

You pushed me gently

In the right direction

I can't thank you enough 

And so I'm letting one more teardrop fall

For the beauty that was us

And the hurt

The sadness

Strife. 

So I've cried for the last time. 

March 2012

I'm a mess. 

I can't think, can't write, can't communicate, and don't want to. 

I'm sick, tired, lazy, and worn out. 

I don't want to eat, but eat too much. 

I need sleep, and stay up late every night. 

I'm sad, but I can't cry. 

I'm angry, but I won't yell. 

I need help, but prayers won't come. 

goodbye

I still remember how much that last kiss tasted like goodbye. 

How you held me so differently, 

As if you knew it was the last time. 

And now I know you did. 

I remember how happy I was in your arms that first time. 

And how sad I am now that I'm not. 

But we knew it was better to end it all 

We knew it was wrong to stay

We knew it was hard, but worth it

Its the right thing

But I can't help but miss you 

Your arms around my waist so tight I can't breathe

Your hand become one with mine 

And your smile when you saw me

It makes me so sad

That I still remember that love that I felt

And how wonderful 

How wonderful 

How much that last kiss tasted 

Like goodbye

4/3/12

4/3/12

Holes, stabbed through the wall an if by a pencil through a navy paper

Light brighter on the other side,

Gushing into my world

Spots, glimpses of her face, a pointillism of beauty

She, blinded by the darkness

Cannot see my yearning face

I, though desperate, speak not a word. 

I know she is mine, though I am never to hold her again. 

It is with her love I go on.