a finding from emotions past

the breeze flits the trees leaves softly
my feet digging in to the dirt I cant try not to think about you
this roads gotten far too long
this hole in my hearts still aching
as I amble under the stars
you're so far away from here 
but you see the same twinkles
I'm sending you wishes by moonlight post
the stars find the way back to you
so I don't have to
an I miss you. 
there's no time to rest 
daydreams become reality
even as I step 
each footprint I leave behind 
makes an imprint 
on someone Ill never know I changed 
I must be happy in my own way
not the way I'm reading
jump the path
I'm running 
to you
I have no way to know where you are
just my piecey heart
but she knows more than I. 

numbness overcome

When you do something because you are numb and want to feel

Even though you know you shouldn't. 

And you feel ashamed but don't know how else to cope. 

When you're hurting and need a release from the pain,

When nothing helps

And everything just becomes a momentary distraction from reality. 

When pain and hurt become reality 

The only reality

stuck

I remember that moment so vividly. 

I know now

That I knew then

At that moment

That I couldn't stay with you 

Or even near to you

That hateful moment haunts me now

I don't hate you

I feel sorry for you. 

But I let you push me 

For far too long

I left you, 

And now 

all I have left 

of us

is myself and that hateful moment. 

Sincerity 

is being honest

completely honest with another person

meaning what you say

or do

or show

Sincerity is so important

in relationships

dealing with any and every person

and just

but what becomes clear is that sincerity is loving  another person

and giving them what they are owed

Being sincere is giving

just as loving is giving

And although love is "all we need"

Without sincerity, love could be an empty promise.

a thought, expanded.

Sheep are so perfect for portraying mankind
They're dumb
ugly
and coarse,
but they give parts of themselves
and from that are made beautiful things
they need each other
must be constantly guided
by a Good Shepherd
and they do not realize
how they are cared for
so much
and loved.
They are weak
vulnerable
cannot see what is right in front of them.
some are eaten by wolves
some are wounded
some never live past childhood
But each has a purpose
They are all loved
Loved immeasurably
Loved by the Good Shepherd
Loved more than they could ever imagine
And like those sheep,
we are ungrateful and run away
run away from the love
the care
the Good Shepherd,
without whom, we are ugly

But he
in His goodness
does all that He can to bring
us all back into
the realization
of
His
Love.